(As you can probably tell from this super evocative title, this will be an article about showers!)
In the fall of 2016, an occupational therapist visited my apartment to lend me mobility equipment to help me with my daily life. She brought a floor-to-ceiling pole to attach next to my bed, so it would be easier for me to pole-dance get up from my bed. She also brought four blocks to put under the feet of my couch, so it’s raised higher and it, again, makes it easier for me to get up (I forget they’re there until I sit on somebody else’s couch and it takes me about three entire minutes, seven tries and a whole ab workout to pry myself out of it).
And she brought a shower chair.
Remember, this was 2016, I had just started using a rollator a few months previous, was still getting used to being visibly permanently physically disabled. The blocks under my couch were fine, I barely realized they were there, and right from the start I could see how they helped. The pole was acceptable; I still tried to kid myself that I could ignore it if I didn’t want to use it (spoiler alert: I could absolutely not). But my mind drew a line at the shower chair. I could still shower standing up, I didn’t need to sit down! Only old people need to sit while showering, not me! I’m not that disabled!
So I made them take the chair back.
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